He finally relaxes and a small smile comes back to his lips. Relieved that things have been smoothed over. "Of course I would want to have a next time, Daozhang." Some of that cheekiness returns as well.
"So I forgive you. You better not break that promise." Xue Yang has his own issues with trust. Everyone who has ever dealt with him has eventually tossed him aside when it was no longer useful to keep him around.
"That's...that's good." A difficult lesson learned and finally, with a wash of relief, he feels loving again and sees that smile. Perhaps, he learns a lot more about him than before. "I promise. I'll do my best. The choices we make is not easy, but I think I made up my mind." He isn't confident, but he knows his feelings are toward to him and him alone and he feels less regret.
He knows he's making a choice, leaving their past behind, and he reaches out with his hand and takes it, to show he wants him back.
"Have you been sleeping? You can come back you know. We need a lot for the mission which is tomorrow and," a beat as he shifting his feelings, "I want you back."
"I'm done in here. I can go back to the room and rest." Since he doesn't have to avoid the cabin now that they have reconciled, he might as well enjoy resting in there instead of the quiet cars. He hadn't been in a particularly social mood so he spent most of his time avoiding people.
He let's Xingchen take his hand and stands up so that they can start the trip back to the cabin.
It's a rocky week, but he figured he appreciates his own bed to get a full rest. He leads him back to the cabin room, to show he is welcomed back. It's empty considering it's during the day, so he knew their roommates are out.
Once the door is closed and they're alone and he's going to plop on the bed. Xingchen flops on his bed, exhausted from everything and wanting to take a nap. Laying on the bed, hands folded on his chest.
Turning his head to looking at him, "Xue Yang, I understand you. So, from now on, when we're together, I'm your partner. When you have a problem or a need, you come to me and I'm...I'm yours, all right? It will take some time and it's new to me, but I will listen to you and give you what you need. Does that help?"
He removes his boots and walks over to Xingchen's bed. Without even asking he simply crawls into it with him. Xingchen said he sleeps better with him around so he might as well share the space.
"All mine." He is allowed to be greedy now that Xingchen is saying that he is his.
He lays on his side and props his head up with his hand. "Sleep well, daozhang."
With that, he's certainly allowed, and much of the doubt that lingered faded away. He's about to get comfortable and feel settled when he feels very much sandwiched against the wall. He wiggles a bit to get comfortable, so their legs get tangled beneath the blanket. He pulls it over to keep warm and their bodies fit and it feels right as they cuddle.
They obtained their peace at last. "All yours." He closed his eyes, for that much-needed nap for a few hours, drifting off, and exhausted from everything.
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Date: 2021-03-08 03:40 (UTC)"So I forgive you. You better not break that promise." Xue Yang has his own issues with trust. Everyone who has ever dealt with him has eventually tossed him aside when it was no longer useful to keep him around.
He wants to be able to trust Xingchen completely.
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Date: 2021-03-08 03:55 (UTC)He knows he's making a choice, leaving their past behind, and he reaches out with his hand and takes it, to show he wants him back.
"Have you been sleeping? You can come back you know. We need a lot for the mission which is tomorrow and," a beat as he shifting his feelings, "I want you back."
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Date: 2021-03-08 04:10 (UTC)He let's Xingchen take his hand and stands up so that they can start the trip back to the cabin.
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Date: 2021-03-08 04:31 (UTC)Once the door is closed and they're alone and he's going to plop on the bed. Xingchen flops on his bed, exhausted from everything and wanting to take a nap. Laying on the bed, hands folded on his chest.
Turning his head to looking at him, "Xue Yang, I understand you. So, from now on, when we're together, I'm your partner. When you have a problem or a need, you come to me and I'm...I'm yours, all right? It will take some time and it's new to me, but I will listen to you and give you what you need. Does that help?"
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Date: 2021-03-08 07:15 (UTC)"All mine." He is allowed to be greedy now that Xingchen is saying that he is his.
He lays on his side and props his head up with his hand. "Sleep well, daozhang."
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Date: 2021-03-08 12:51 (UTC)They obtained their peace at last. "All yours." He closed his eyes, for that much-needed nap for a few hours, drifting off, and exhausted from everything.